Amor, no es amor
Then what am i feeling
What am i doing wrong
Amor, no es amor
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart
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:) you are mentioned in my blog. Don't be sad. :) :) :)
AND YOU DON'T EVEN WANT TO COME ONLINE TO SEE?!?!? happpillllyyy.
Thursday, 29 May 2008 // 23:21
I FEEL ROTTEN.
and I wish you would understand. :(
// 19:27
齐心协力，团结就是力量
Uh, I know its kind of gross that my title is in chinese but that's what lao shi told us just yesterday and I think it fits our situation now.
Results all back. I don't know if I should be happy or sad. To quote Joan, "For every subject, there's a different feeling". I think sometimes, I am too harsh on myself. I don't know why I set such high standards. And I knew that I was going to screw up my Lit yet I still kept hanging on to the fact that I will get an A1.
I have confirmed that I can only memorise, not apply. I have no Bs, just As and Cs. And the As? All those subjects which I can memorise and memorise and memorise then spill everything out during the exam. (e.g Bio) And Cs? humanities, english, physics. I really think that I am a very stupid person. I CAN'T SEEM TO THINK FLEXIBLY.
Now, the focus is on Chinese 'O's. And i pray that everyone of you will really buck up and concentrate this weekend. And its pointless if only one or a few of us do well. Its more meaningful if we well together.
Messaged Sophie again on the way home. And she was offering to give me her lit and history notes. But of course, I didn't accept lah. I think she is really a very generous person and she doesn't mind sharing notes with her friends and she doesn't bitch about others. She is really my role model okay.
Sophie: "eh seriously. I have notes for like history and lit if you want you just ask"
Me: Heh? Generous galore? haha. Don't want lah, i feel bad taking your notes (some parts deleted due to unglam reasons)
Sophie: Don't have to feel bad! In the end we still want to get the same marks together and top together right?
I really love Sophie. She is one of a kind. And I wish I/we can be like her.
I just want to tell all of you that our last chance (for chinese) really lies in this three days. And I really hope that all of us will get our desired marks for chinese. Don't harp about the midyear results because to quote laoshi there is really nothing much we can do about it already.
June Holidays:
Practice SS SBQ
Revise the whole of History
English Intensive ( I already planned it all out) wigglezx
Physics practice practice practice
JIA YOU!
Friday, 16 May 2008 // 23:17
Results
Intensive started. Results back (some).
I am really depress about my English marks. I was really just expecting a B. It was probably too ambitious. :( I think I got one of the last in class for english, and i hardly scrape through a c5. URGH, I NEED TO BUCK UP.
Thanks nicole, for the motivational speech yesterday. I will look up to you as my role model and I will make myself go through English intensive during the holidays.
Results so far are okay. Okay, actually they are good, much better than i would expect them to be. It just makes me sad whenever I think of English. Its not something I can escape and its not something I can excel. L1 must be english. Sometimes I really wish I am gifted in English and suck at everything else.
Chinese 'O's are coming and I really want my A1 badly. Really. I won't even be satisfied with an A2. But I don't feel like I am doing enough to deserve it.
Tomorrow will be a horrible day. History paper (failed - Alice Chia told us), SS paper (probably failed too), Physics (clinging on to the hope that i will at least get a B3), Biology (I don't know what I want), and Lit.
All I want now is that I will get a distinction for Lit. But I have zero confidence for it. Probably, L1R5 of 10 points is seriously too ambitious. Enough of emo things. Need to congratulate some people!
CONGRATS TO .....
JOAN! HAHA I ALWAYS KNEW YOU HAD A GIFT FOR WRITING! ITS GREAT. KEEP IT UP OKAY? AND SAME AS NICOLE. STUDY HARD AND BE CONSISTENT!!! You all have the potential to get 6 points as long as you try. :)
ZIYING! sigh, don't be sad about your e maths alright? BUT CONGRATS FOR YOUR CHEM AND A MATHS. CHEM PROZXXZXZ. and history how ah? JIA YOU FOR CHINESE!
NICOLE FOR GETTING FIRST IN CLASS!! FOR ENGLISH. YOU ROCK AND BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!! OKAY? Study hard and I am sure you will be on the galaxy at the end of the year!
GAYLE! FOR YOUR CHINESE MARKS! Haha, I think you are a clebu gal too and we will work together forever to become the best in chinese. :)
SHERLYN for (you can guess what) OF COURSE YOUR EMATHS. sigh, i wish my name was there too (wiggles) haha. :) Keep it up lah, I mean you are keeping it up but yeah, I sure you will do well too at the end of the year.
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST .... SOPHIE! I am really proud of you darl. Haha, you are seriously super hardworking and focussed and i think you shouldn't be paiseh about your achievements! They are really what you deserve. :) You beat so many scholars and top 6 somemore. WOWZA. Give me tuition please? haha. Love you!
Anyway, I was messaging sophie today and it went like this:
"haiyah, i bet you will get on the stage again and blah blah blah" (cant remember clearly sorry)
Sophie: "I don't want to go on stage. SO PAISEH".
TOTALLY SOPHIE. hahah go up the stage and wave to us kay? haha Sophie very cute. :)
Thursday, 15 May 2008 // 21:49
Trekking down the muddy road.
So many things happened these past few days (no actually 2 but it seems so long). :) And we seriously took so many pictures/videos together which is :D:D.
Friday: Learning Journey + School invasion tour + CrezAwards
LJ: UH, damn boring cause we walked around the CBD and marina bay without really learning anything. Camwhored like mad. Haha. Mr Choy came with us and I think he hates our class now cause we don't listen to him. :( PICTURES!
School Invasion Tour: Quite cool and our school suddenly become so happening eh? There was this Nokia SBS bus thing under the arts conservatory and The gang decided to go and check it out before the concert. The bus is coolio. :D Ziying and I kissed a man on the bus. WEEGERZX. And luckily we went before the concert. It was like super packed after the concert cause everyone wanted to see the 'cute' guy from the band. 987's Soo came and Z said she did a shoutout to Crescent. Seems like we are loved. We sang a birthday song for her!!! Sigh, I am so lazy to blog so I shall just post pictures since pictures speak a thousand words. :)
gayle was don't know where so she didn't take piccy with us. :(
CrezAwards: I guess this year's crezawards was much better than the previous years so it was great. :D The performances were good and at least there weren't any embarrassing performers. Haha, there was this group of disgusting people sitting in front of us and this girl kept playing with her hair. The girl next to her was like kissing and hugging her bf nonstop and genelle was super funny. She went to tap on the guy's shoulder and said "Eh, can you stop hugging and kissing? I cannot see" HAHAH totally okay. She is the best. :D And the both of them started fiddling with their handphones probably smsing each other and bitching about us. BUT WHO CARES! Oh yah, we had to queue for a million years before we were allowed to go in. And all of us were so irritated and grumpy especially Ziying and I. Grumpygals. :D
haha, colour coordinated. BUT got people worse than us. Seriously. They were wearing the same top + same bottom + same shoes + same belt. And their hair is totally also. Ziying: "I bet their go Crezawards shopping together." Agreed man.
HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jennette Aw came on stage for about 2 minutes to give prizes and she was so pretty and kewl. I really love love love her!!! haha, she is best. But they should have like requested for her to sing or dance or act. :D Haha right.
Oh yah, the teacher escorts are really funny. like Mr M and his umbrella and mr siow junior. ?!?!?! Like wth okay, I think everyone focussed on the teacher escorts rather than the singing.
Saturday: dinner at Causeway Point + OSA live concert.
I don't regret going for the OSA live concert. It was seriously damn good!!! So J, S, Z and I met earlier at Causeway point for dinner and to get Mother's day gifts before going down to Republic Poly for the concert. N had tuition and G had church so they met us later. Okay, we were supposed to meet at Woodlands at 4 but... BECAUSE of sherlyn, we reached there at like 4.30. haha, and I thought I was late. When I reached Tiong it was 3.20 so I text Z to tell her that I will be late and J is going to kick my flaccid butt. But in the end, Sherlyn was the bomb, I swear. J and I missed like 5 trains to marina bay cause of her. Met Z at Choa Chu Kang and headed down to Woodlands. Quite fast lah, or at least faster than expected.
Debated about where to have dinner (as usual), didn't decide on anything, went to get mother's day present first. S followed me to Expressions to get some basic facial appointment thing for my mum and I think they were looking at us weirdly/ disgustingly cause ALL I COULD AFFORD WAS A BASIC FACIAL. hatezzxzzxz. But anyway, not the point. Z and J went to the flower shop to get carnations for our mummys. haha Then had dinner at Mos. G met us there.
Ziying kept looking out of the glass doors trying to see if G arrived already or not.
Me: "So... your darl come already or not?"
Z: "There, the orange one lah."
Haha, and the orange one was like a bunk. Totally.
Met the whole class at the Mrt station together with Mrs Tan and we walked to the Republic Poly. Omg, the concert was really really cool. It is like some Singapore/American idol. They played the auditions with some funny/weird people doing crazy stuff and the judges expressions. We spotted a cute judge eh, wiggerzx Ziying. All the performances were great as well. And FANTASTIC FIVE WAS REALLY SO COOL. They even had a poster of the five of them. They did magic show and they were really good. Wth, one judge said "I think you all should smile a little blah blah blah" Hello? its a magic show and not even suppose to smile one lah, it is STYLE YOU UNDERSTAND BABEY?! They did a great job of putting everything together. :D I shall try to find out how they did those tricks heehee.
Only 4 groups can get into the second round and they did together with some shit band and the kueh lapis group and this really great beat-boxing/singing group. Haiyah, forgot what they are called but they were great and one judge said he considered helping them make an album which was :O Second round was nice as well. But we didn't stay for the whole thing cause it was like 10.10 already and by the time we reach home it would be about 12.10 or something considering the fact that we take forever to walk to the MRT. We left after the fantastic five performance. Haha and levia message Z that "the stupid Jetlag band is noise pollution" which is true. Luckily we went off first. N had to rush home while S and I had steamboat. But in the end I didn't even go to my grandma's house for steamboat cause I was too tired. We won the best Fan group and Fantastic 5 got 3rd. Which was already very good. :D :D Sigh, all our cameras ran out of batt so we couldn't take pictures when we were walking to the bus stop. Its nice to walk together at night. :D Haven't gotten the pictures from people yet so shall post them up another time. goodbuahs.
Long post galore.
OH NO results tomorrow and EMCEE SCRIPT FOR CAMPFIRE?!?!?!? Ziying and Nicole, HELP!!!
Sunday, 11 May 2008 // 12:08
Bonding Galore. :D
Heheh. Nowadays we are really doing everything together, probably cause Joan has decided to STOP going out with her other friends and Gayle is like more allowed (?) to join us. :D:D But anyway, today was a happy day because firstly, ITS THE END OF MID YEARS!!!!! and secondly we had a fun together, BONDING.
A Maths paper was .. I don't really know, wishing for the best and my plane geometry is like screwed up big time. :( AND MY MODULUS GRAPH. Don't want to talk about it.
We were planning to head to Ziying's house at first but because she was OH-SO-CONSIDERATE and wanted to let her brother have a peace of mind to study for his exam (or so she claims), we headed to Joan's house instead. :D We ended super early cause we were like lit students and haha for once the lit students are being entitled to privileges. Went to Jurong to eat Pizza Hut to reward ourselves/indulge. I really like the baked rice, shall go there more often. (hints for donation). Alot of funny conversations were going on but I cannot remember any and Joan was happily trying to take candid pictures and as usual, the popular duo (ZY and I) were chosen. She took SO MANY unglam pictures. Omg, I hope she doesn't post them. (PLEASY?)
I learn how to pronounce a new word: CAPSICUM. I swear my mum was the one who taught me the wrong pronunciation. :(
Went to search for Mother's Day present at the body shop but we were obviously being chased out of the shop. So only sherlyn manage to get her mum something. Some Swatch vouchers I think. Rich bitch eh?
TREKKED down to Joan's house. And seriously, haha like we weren't walking on pavements. We were jay walking across a million roads and we had to cross a barrier to reach a MUD BARN then climb a million mountains and grassy patches followed by more roads and rocks before we reach her house. :( HAHA, cool Gayle and pathetic Ziying post for a picture at the rocks to reminisce the past. :D
Joan's maid was practically "feeding us". And I was so full after eating so much at Pizza Hut. We were suppose to play the Wii but Nicole's mummy didn't allow her to lug it. :( Joan kept pestering us to go play basketball with her and haha kena daoed. We were all so tired after the draining maths paper and TREKKING that we just slumped onto her sofa and watch TV. OH NO WE ARE BORING PEOPLE. We watched like the Filipino channel and some cooking thing with a cute guy. And we were so high because of this variety show called "WOWOWEE". It really reminded me of HairSpray but whatever it is , it was highly entertaining. :)
Played with Joan's dad's message chair and continued to watch this very failure design show. Ah really hate it. REALLY REALLY HATE IT. Then Joan took out some karaoke CD and we got so high, we wanted to sing everything. It was super funny cause we had such melodious voices and we were like screaming more than singing. Or at least me. Haha, and guess what, we all sang My Love by Westlife and our score: 96/100. Seems like... and IF I REMEMBER CORRECTLY, I WAS SINGING THE MOST IN THE MIC.. so wiggles. Seems like someone has a hidden talent.
Ziying was being so irritating, haha she tried to be some emcee thing and kept making weird comments with the Mic. I bet Joan's sister and brother all hate her. :) BUT ... ILU. (yucks)I took a video secretly, damn funny but I can't post it up or else she will be angry gal. We were seriously damn high today, and never felt so happy and bonded before. Hopefully got more of such outings. :) OH YAH, Joan keep chasing us out of the house, totally. Still say Ziying not hospitable?!?!?!Kidding. :)
HEEHEE, I really need to go shopping soon. :( Cause these days have so many things which need cloths for example, crezawards + Manli and Guanchu's magic show + career day. And MONEY!!! Shit, I haven't gotten anything for mother's day.
OH YAH, I SAW LIKE 3 RATS AT REDHILL MRT STATION TODAY, NEXT TO THE BUBBLETEA SHOP. The rats kept running in and out and there were more than 3 rats all running around at the drain. OMG, super traumatising. HATE RATS.
Need to get piccys from Joan. BYE!
Wednesday, 7 May 2008 // 20:57
Back by popular demand!
Sigh, I am blogging at such an UNEARTHLY hour cause I slept in the evening and I can't sleep now. :( And I had been shitting for forever since I came home. Maybe I am like LACTOSE INTOLERANT since I had so much cheese today at Pastamania. My BF was there. WIGGLES~
OH NO, if I am lactose intolerant, then I cannot eat POTONG as well. :( Okay, not like I like potong very much, in fact I have a phobia of potong. Cause once my family got this box of potong from don't know where and we all ate one stick. And everyone in my family had diarrhea for the whole day. Somemore my house only got one toilet so you can just imagine. :D:D HATEZX POTONG. (sorry joan)I think the Potong was like expired or something, or maybe my whole family is lactose intolerant.
MYE quite screwed, but I am just praying for the best. I don't even know if I can reach my aim of 10 points. :( So I am decided to lower it to 15 points which is a more-realistic-but-maybe-still-cannot-reach-target. :(
I think I am very witty sometimes, so much so I can be like WITI IHIMAERA. :D Since it is the praise-yourself-and-maybe-others week (to quote Ziying), I shall praise myself. :D AND sherlyn happily say I look NERDY. I AM DAMN SAD NOW OKAY. :( :( :(
But Nicole darl told me that I look INTELLIGENT (which is about the same as nerdy but phrased nicerly *coughs*) so I will choose to believe Nicole and not the "WHO IS AGITATED?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?" girl. BLEGH.
Today was sad + happy day. SAD cause chem was .. and HAPPY cause we weren't caught for loitering and we ate pastamania and SAD cause gayle didn't join us and also SAD cause Lit was ...
Thus, I conclude today is a sad day. :(
HEEHEE.
Saw BYJE and salad today. and.. I felt happy seeing them again lah just that I feel quite weird after some time. Sigh, result of not keeping contact. I shall make a point to stay in contact with THE GANG in future. SIGHZXZXZXZXZXZXZX.
Saturday, 3 May 2008 // 01:43